Lesson

I have to learn my lesson. I have to learn that no matter how ready I am for Daniel to arrive, he's just not going to budge until he's good and ready and He's good and ready. I cannot control the fact that I have friends and family coming in this weekend from all over the country who will just happen to be here for July 4th. I cannot control whether I have a new baby to share with them. I cannot control when I start having contractions and I cannot control where I am when the show begins. I cannot control anything beyond myself – I have to learn my lesson.
Don't get me wrong – this pregnancy has been amazing. I'm not miserable (not really, anyway) and I don't feel like I might die if I don't have this baby right this very minute. Sure I'm tired. Sure my wedding ring doesn't fit right now. Sure having contractions from 7 pm – 3 am makes sleeping difficult. All those things aside, I'm still ok – physically speaking. At this point, it's a mind game (with myself, of course). Learn my lesson – that's what I have to do.
Learn my lesson.